Studio 6

Inner Idea Artists: Beauty Follows Truth--Montserrat Contemporary Art Gallery

2011-09-22T20:12:00.000-07:00

In addition to the four paintings in the Eroding Foundations: Tableau series posted below, I have sent eight other paintings to be in the Inner Idea Artists Exhibit at Montserrat Gallery. I am sending the 18 inch squared paintings from the Splitting Open the World post and three new 28"x38" paintings:

These are titled Caesura 2, 1, and 3 in that order. These are more mark-making through rubbing the unstretched canvas and then applying washes to the surface. This process knocks me out. The title is a literary term that means a pause in the rhythm in the midst of a line of poetry. I've recently discovered that it's also a term used in music. It seemed that there was a break in the paintings to let the light through--that makes it appropriate.

So the show runs from Oct 4-22, with the reception on the 6th from 6-8. I am honored to be showing with eleven other Inner Idea Artists, all who paint in the Kandinsky spirit. And it's going to be a grand event to see Monse and Victor at Montserrat once again. Lovely people.

And when the party is over, I will be in my studio, making marks on canvas via this process that I am absolutely in love with. It all started when I took Peggy's Zehring's class that one week in 1995. Brilliant move to sign up for that workshop. And Peggy gives all the credit of her magical teaching to Kandinsky. Following that means I live my most passionate life. Thank you.

Eroding Foundations: Tableaus 1 through 4

2011-02-06T16:11:00.001-08:00

Each of the paintings in this series is created on 11"x14" gessobord with a 2" cradle profile. I was looking for a way to combine my two favorite ways to paint: build up texture and embed items and the black stamping of tools to make marks. I wanted the black and white portion of the painting to appear in a square of 11"x11" with the foundation of mixed medium to be 3". And that's all I knew when I made the gessobord purchase.

Once I started thinking of the bottom 3" as a foundation and then considering the items to embed, the 'eroding' seemed inevitable, the wabi sabi effect. I've included stair step erosion in one because stair steps often are symbolic is some of my most intense dreams (hmm...wonder if there's something in that as to why I fractured my fibula when I missed a bottom step...I just now put that together). In another foundation, I embedded the underwire of an old bra--they call them foundation garments and those damned underwires somehow inevitably poke through and destroy the foundation. Also embedded are door hinges, another reference to my dreamtime; a bullet shell with primer, a reference to the evenings spent watching my father make bullets, melting the lead, measuring the gunpowder, etc.; and of course, many beloved circle items and spirals, those being symbols of life for me.

The mark making with items to stamp became beings in a narrative. Often, I wanted to create the illusion of three beings--just a more interesting narrative--but I do not really know their stories. Hence, the tableau. Just a scene. A part of a larger narrative, open to interpretation by all, viewer and participant. No one knows the truth. We filter what we see through our emotions and our own experiences, though the books we read, the music we hear, the movies we watch, other art we experience. None of us can really be the "fair witness" of Stranger in a Strange Land, can we? The truth erodes away and what is revealed? How slippery is our foundation, how stable?

Working title "Burning Down the House"

2010-06-06T19:41:00.000-07:00

Where the Splitting the World Open series is rubbings, these are stampings. I used some of the same tools: knitting needles, remote control, silverware, silverware drawer organizer, knitted dish cloth, door jamb bits, and that bracelet my daughter was going to throw away. And I couldn't escape the idea of burning it all down and flowing in the water. One of the artists in the building said it looked like something was blooming. Yes an opening up of the truth. A burning of what we don't need, a cleansing, a budding and flowering of the beauty that remains. More transcendence and transformation.

Dancing Bird Dandy and The Hedgehog

2010-06-06T19:31:00.000-07:00

So you just have to laugh when a friend looks at your art and sees a Dancing Bird Dandy. And you say, "I don't see it." And she says, "It's right here." And you say, "I still don't see it." (But I do see a cartoon hedgehog in the other figure and wonder, "Should I paint it into oblivion?") Then your friend downloads your painting from your blog and outlines the Dancing Bird Dandy and the Hedgehog profile and emails it to you. Yes now I see. And your daughter profoundly says, "Love how warring titans turn to funny cartoon characters. Says so much." Yes. Yes, it does. Nothing gets painted into oblivion. The hedgehog stays in the picture. It's one of the joys of abstract.

Embattled Titans

2010-05-09T20:31:00.000-07:00

acrylic 20"x28"

En-raged one night

Ex-pressed onto canvas the next

A knitted dishcloth soaked in perfect grey

Water squirted without thought

A choke chain stamped in red

Orange and a touch of yellow wheeled in

Compliments added

Compassion now fills the emptied space.

Splitting the World Open

2010-03-28T22:36:00.001-07:00

Looks are deceiving here--someday, I'll get the technology figured out. The square paintings are 18"x18" and the rectangular are 18"x27". I haven't decided the order of the paintings yet. The process started for each painting as a rubbing of items that were symbolic of my childhood and the things that hook us as adults so that we go back to that child self. I was looking for transcendence and transformation. The title comes from a Muriel Rukeyser quote: What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? The world would split open.

Aditi: Fertility

2010-03-28T22:31:00.000-07:00

Aditit: Fertility 33"x33"

This is the version post posting on InnerIdeaArtists website. It is more finished now. I'm not touching it anymore. But I must say, it's a little like revising writing. As long as a painting stays in the studio, it's subject to revision. Once it's out the door, it's done. One must make a conscious effort to not put more paint on the canvas. To say yes to the finished work.

Letting Go

2010-02-20T21:53:00.000-08:00

I had nearly finished this painting, but it had a problem. The flame from orange to white to blue in the bottom left quadrant threatened to propel the image off of the painting. I loved that part of the painting, but it was distracting, overpowering, and actually belonged to a different image. One I hadn't painted yet. Definitely not here, not now. I had protected this portion of the painting through all of the edge work. Now it was time to let it go. That's often the way it is. The places you fall in love with have to essentially provide the foundation to more color, different shapes. And actually, letting go leads to freedom and other places to love.

Aditi: Space 33"x33"

The bottom left and center, now, for me, hold the image and the space. There is still movement, but it's circular. And stronger. And I will always know what lies underneath that strength.

Lightcatcher of the Whatcom Museum

2010-01-10T21:36:00.000-08:00

The Lightcatcher is a fabulous addition to the Whatcom Museum. This building is for exhibiting fine arts, and it houses what is known as "FIG," or the children's museum. the current exhibition at the Lightcatcher, "Out of Bounds," is the art collection of two wonderful people, Driek and Michael Zirinsky.

I know Driek and Michael from my years at Boise State University. Michael was one of my teachers in the "History of Eastern Civilization" class (his area of expertise--History of the Middle East), and Driek was my mentor as I went through the English Secondary Education program. I certainly could not have made it through as gracefully without her guidance. And now, our paths cross again, in Bellingham, in the art world.

Driek and Michael have collected art from around the world and some mighty stunning pieces are displayed at the Lightcatcher:

Jeppe Hein "Fire Drawings" are mandalas created from the scorchings of a torch.

Chris Gilmore's "Lambretta" is the incredibly detailed motorcycle constructed of cardboard.

Lead Pencil Studio's Annie Han and Daniel Mihalyo created "Inversion" to pay with solid and void and can also be viewed from above.

Cheryl Sturtleff's home-structions tell a compelling story of structure and emotion.

Susie J. Lee in "Fugue State" projects shadows of hands portraying varying stages of human relationship through handcast resin.

Long-Bin Chen sculpts faux stone heads from recycled books in "China Can Say No Again" and "Damoh" (from telephone books).

Ala Ebtekar has reverently painted "Ascension Buraq" with Tanka clouds and missiles on pages of an Islamic prayer book.

And then there is Enrique Chagoya's "Codex" an incredible book, a copy of which can be purchased at the gift store, "Endurance" footage of Shackleton's adventure in the Antarctic with penguins and pick axes projected on a tooth. Look for a painting with Medusa seeing her reflection as a smiley face. Definitely the gamut of emotions as one travels from the profound to the whimsical. The breath stopper, though, is Hung Liu's "September" a painting in process in 2001 with a Chinese woman in elaborate headdress and a peace crane juxtaposed. I wished for a bench to sit on to ponder this painting further.

The Zirinskys also own a couple of pieces created by John Grade, who has an installation in the Lightcatcher called "Bloom: The Elephant Bed." This cannot be explained. There's ink. There's paper. There are counterbalanced weights. There's binding that's corn-based to dissolve in Bellingham Bay waters. There's white. There's black.

So I bought a membership. It had to be done. Been there three times. Will be there again February 7 when John Grade comes to the Lightcatcher to speak about his work. There are a lot of people to thank for the existence of this fine art museum. I thank them all. And I thank Driek and Michael for sharing their art adventures with us 'hamsters.

2009-09-27T13:11:00.000-07:00

Gifts of Wabi Sabi

And my friends bring me presents. Often left on my studio door knob, sometimes slid under the door. Friends go to Venice, Italy and bring me back rusted wire and brick. They go to Port Elizabeth, South Africa and bring back a nail rusted by the moisture off the Indian Ocean. They go to London and dig in the dirt and bring back a curved bit of rusty metal--a broken vase? They tape pennies and keys to the train tracks and offer me one of the many treasures smashed there. They go to Artist's Point on the Mount Baker Glacier and bring back part (a very small part, thank you) of a car hood that apparently fell from the sky and rusted into the scree. Add to that broken bits of dresser knob embellishment and various finds from sheds and metal detected expanses. I am a lucky, lucky girl to be blessed with such finds. Thank you, my friends, these treasures will become parts of my art.

This time I really mean it: Finished Gestating

2009-09-27T13:01:00.000-07:00

Still Point: Gestating 36"x36"

It was quite the process, and it took some time once Peggy Zehring pointed out to me that I need to turn the orientation, but I love it now. I just had to darken down below the circles and raise the burn a little into the white. But I love how this is working now. As always, I bow to my teacher/mentor and give thanks for having recognized her when I saw her.

2009-07-05T18:45:00.000-07:00

Woman, The Snake, and Man: Before, During, and After

each painting is 24" x 48"

This series pulls together many symbols and concepts for me. I chose the size because I wanted the paintings to look like columns. The idea of the snake came when I found this very versatile brass hose at Z Recycling. It reminded me of a snake. I didn't mind that it was flat in places, that it was torn and unraveling in places. That seemed right with the idea of a snake shedding its skin. Experimenting proved that the surface could hold paint, which could prove necessary.

Once I thought of the hose as a snake, a couple of concepts came to me: one is the myth that the snake and woman (Eve) brought knowledge to humankind (what was the man's role in that? he had to go along for it to work, right?); the other is that the kundalini is represented by a snake. The idea of the kundalini made me think of tantric sex and the life force moving up the spine during orgasm. It goes something like that. In the paintings, the female aspect is symbolically represented by the oval shape with the dark at the back and the light on top, the male aspect by the upward pointing triangle with the light at the back and the dark on top. With these two opposites above/below one another, the question became where is the light where they come together (hmm...did I intend that pun)? The answer for me was a continuous push/pull between dark and light. It took a lot of time and paint, putting it on, leaving just the right amount, painting over, push/pull, push/pull until it was complete.

This series was quite the challenge for me and sat unfinished for months. Once I started figuring them out, though, they happened fast...well...relatively fast for me. These paintings were great teachers for me. They move me closer toward the marriage of the divine feminine and masculine, a spiritual achievement I aspire to for cronedom. I loved working on them, the whole process. I think that they have to always hang together.

Finally. This is it. Re-working finished

2009-06-22T22:12:00.000-07:00

Still Point: Gestating 36"x36"

I think I have finally resolved all of the places in this painting that were nagging at me: "not quite right." I've sat in my rocking chair countless moments, pouring over the painting inch by inch. Right now, it makes me smile. Of course, there is always more time to sit and rock and study, but I think that I'm taking it to Ladyfest this week to get it to an audience--if there is enough room on the gallery walls.

So in this painting, "Gestating," is the idea that circles represent the female and squares, the male. This is my consciousness moving toward acceptance of the divine feminine and masculine, toward the idea that we gestate both dimensions within ourselves, that we accept that, as we move toward the integration and "the crowning of age" as Marion Woodman calls the spiral toward becoming a crone.

Still Reworking--Still Point:Gestating

2009-05-19T21:54:00.000-07:00

So here it is again, after gold-gessoing out the bottom right and upper left and putting in the colors of oil slicks and peacock feathers. Still not finished, though. But my balance problem of leaning to the right is mostly resolved. I hear that the lower left quadrant is not quite working, and frankly, it was troubling me, so I'm relieved that's confirmed. I think I need red there. And I have yet to be successful in completing the top of the gold that runs over the two circles in the middle space. I've painted and repainted that area. The painting is still trying to tell me what goes there.

Reworked Version Still Point: Gestating

2009-04-23T19:54:00.000-07:00

I'm still reworking this painting but feel pretty close to finished. I resolved the split personality that happened when I added green after I'd been working the copper/violet. I think I need to come in with a little more gold in the space above the three circles. But after the red was added, I could feel myself smiling--a smile that started in my toes. That's often how I know a painting is finished or very nearly so.

Now I just need to learn how to use my new/first digital camera along with the cropping tool. There's always some new technology nipping at my heals. It provides such a challenge.

Abstract Composition Upside Right

2009-04-14T23:14:00.000-07:00

I thought it went like this:

But Peggy showed me how and why it was a better composition when rotated 180 degrees. The way I was seeing, the viewer could not get down to the lower half of the painting. The attention was drawn to the gold circle in the top half. I still need and value her instruction. I've gotten so many more positive comments on this piece now that it hangs this way.

Still Point: Trichotomizing 36"x36"

Peggy Zehring: Teacher and Mentor

2009-04-14T21:48:00.000-07:00

I just registered for my 14th week of "Experimental Drawing and Painting" taught by Peggy Zehring through LaConner Art Workshops. Yes, this will be my 14th annual saving-my-life-in-five-days pilgrimage. It's not just that my passion and, at last, commitment to painting has saved my life, but I have had found a mettlesome mentor in Peggy.

I first observed her teaching when I worked at Coupeville Arts Center. I was impressed from the first, but after witnessing her art of teaching for one week each of two years, I vowed to not let another opportunity to paint with her guidance pass by without participating. What I saw in Peggy's method is a way of safe-porting artists in their risk-taking. I had seen many workshops happen in the three years that I worked a the Arts Center, but I knew that since I hadn't any fine art education beyond high school art class, she was the only one that I could trust to meet me where I was and challenge me to the next level.

What happened for me 14 years ago was the beginning of an on-going dialogue between the canvas and my spirit with Peggy Zehring as my guide and mentor. The first seven years, I only painted during that five-day, annual workshop. Peggy was very patient and each year, encouraged me to carve out place and time for my painting. Many years, I would come to the workshop with a question or a metaphor from which to begin my five-day intensive. Something I might have read or heard sparked some growth in my spiritual quest and inevitably it would appear in my drawings on that first day of class, then in the paintings that I would work on in subsequent days. But still, I would only paint during the workshop and hope that it would be enough to get me through to the next year. Of course, since I was teaching English with 8th graders at the time, I was pretty much consumed by that endeavor.

After working with Peggy for seven years (or should I say, seven weeks), I finally was at the place where everything I looked at--peeling paint on a dilapidated building, rust and scratches on a railroad sidecar, wabi sabi in general--became an abstract painting. I still only had time to create in my head, but I did it constantly. At the end of the 01-02 school year, in response to two tragic events, one being the terrorist attacks of 9/11/01, the other being the debilitating stroke experienced by a friend's husband, I decided that I could not put off my passion and dreams any longer. I had to leave teaching, get a job in a bookstore (Scott's Bookstore in Mount Vernon, that is sadly no longer open for business), and make art. I created space and time for my passion.

And always because of Peggy's nudges, I was painting my truth. I was growing my spirit. I was learning the nuances of abstract composition. Through Peggy, I have learned about color--the mixing of perfect grey and all colors from the primaries--I have learned about the dark and the light dynamic, where they are logically and intuitively--I have learned the secret of composition in squares--I have learned to experiment, experiment, experiment--and four years ago, Peggy introduced me to the absolute joy of creating texture by mixing gel medium and spackle. And always, through the whole process, we would have the most spiritually enriching, philosophical discussions. What can I say, I thrived on the whole experience.

And one of the coolest things about a workshop with Peggy is witnessing what each of the workshop artists creates when expressing their individual truth. Seeing how others thrive. There is always so much richness, so much that is compelling, so much to learn from each other's experience of paper and charcoal of canvas and paint and use of some of the oddest tools a painter could work with.

Yes, Peggy has given generously. To so many. She also gave me the gift of the most sublime experience of my life this past September at the Montserrat Contemporary Art Gallery in New York City. I was honored to have my work exhibited with hers and with the work of Margo Spellman. Please check out their websites through the links on the sidebar.

To Peggy Zehring...I raise my glass and my spirit in gratitude.

More about the dark...

2009-03-25T21:18:00.000-07:00

I also don't think of the light as fertile. The dark is rich with fertility. The light is dry, is fire, but it is needed to bring the fertility to life. Afterall, complete darkness is not a necessarily enriching place to be. Okay, so maybe I'm talking the Yin/Yang aspect of light and dark. And it's all good in balance and moderation.

Still Point: Gestating

2009-03-24T22:18:00.000-07:00

This painting is undergoing a re-make. The problem with painting a series is that when it is finished, you always have one in the series that's weaker than the others...unless of course, you are really, really accomplished at what you create...something I'm still working on becoming.

So this was my weakest. I never really liked the way the paint went on. I could never really figure out for sure what was on top where--dark or light. I loved the marks and felt the paint did not do it justice. So I whited it out. Gessoed over all of the textured part of the canvas. Then went over the center, mostly low-lying section (except where the three circles are, that's raised, which part of the what's on top problem) with pearlescent. That was really cool. And made my decision about the light being at the back, dark on top, mostly. Then I had to figure out what to do next. I love gold gesso, so I chose that to go around the center section.

Now what? Must add color--I kept the surroundground blue. Then I started working with violet mixed with red toned copper. That was cool and very dark and shiny (the moist part, you know). Then, on the lower right quadrant, I put in blue-green. Created an obstacle to overcome. Now my painting was divided by color. So that's what I faced when I entered my studio tonight. I was loving the elements, but not how they were together, had to make the painting more integrated. So I started adding blue-green on top of and around the red-copper-violet. And I was entranced by the close-up effect. I wanted to do that everywhere in the painting but had to stop myself.

The color combinations and effect made me think of peacock feathers and really colorful bruises (I had one that had amazing color that moved from knee to ankle and back for a period of about a month after I fell hard on my knee once) and gorgeous parking lot oil slicks. I love studying oil slicks after a bit of a rain. I know it's not cool when you consider what they really are (same with bruises, right?) but have you really studied the colors and the shapes? They quite often create mandala shapes. And they are blue with green and red-violet and a goldish-brown and dark, dark. Next time I see one, I'm going to drag a stick or something through it to see how it can be manipulated. Come to think of it, once I saw a jellyfish on the beach at Penn Cove that had all of those colors in it. It held my fascination until the tide threatened to take it back into the water.

All this to say, that when I left my studio tonight, I felt like I was overcoming the obstacle, meeting the challenge. I like that feeling. I won't get back into my studio for a couple of nights, which is a bit of a frustration...don't want to lose momentum.

Still Point: Descending

2009-03-20T23:50:00.000-07:00

Because hanging upside down, cocooned in the dark was her way to enlightenment.

36"x36"

The Dark and the Light

2009-03-20T23:06:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking about the dark and the light and working on the balance and dynamics between the two in my art for many years now. But it seems to be a more intense focus now. Friends wish me light quite often in closing correspondence. And I appreciate that because I understand the spirit of the intention. And I know about blessing into enlightenment and what that means toward spiritual growth. But I have to say that I love the dark. I love the dark.

Not dark alleys, mind you, but the dark places we go to lick wounds, to really explore emotion, to examine events of the past until we experience little deaths and rebirths through that examination. I think of the dark as the positive experience of the womb. It's a nurturing environment. And that's often what I am seeking to depict in my art. What is being nurtured in the dark, moist place we came from? At one time, at the beginning of our being, it was the physical self being nurtured there, but now, at this time of my life, it is the spiritual self that is gestating. And that is where my painting "Still Point: Descending" came from.

Some refer to the dark metaphorically as a place of fear and depression, but for me, it is a comforting place to face my fears. The light can be blinding, can obscure details, as when a person is standing, facing you, but is back-lit so that you cannot discern their facial features, read their demeanor. It hurts, on some level, to look at that person for any amount of time. So don't we really need a balance of the light and of the dark to see what is real and true?

In my paintings, I often surround the forms I am working on with dark. Since I work with textures, I have to make the decision of whether the dark is on top of the texture and the light at the back, or the other way around. And usually, there is a point in the painting where I reverse the main motif because I think of light as swirling around, in and out, and through the environment. But recently, I have been exploring that place where the dark and the light meet. I think of it as a "push/pull" of light and dark. It's been challenging and fun. But the bottom line is that I love the dark, and I'm not giving it up. I'm living to balance it with the light.

Re-Storing Feminine Consciousness II

2009-03-07T14:36:00.000-08:00

Gather Insight, Birth Joy, Fathom Possibilities

Each painting is 5"x5", features Re-Store finds, ceramics by Clarissa Callesen, other metal findings, and of course, cowry shells

Re-Storing Feminine Consciousness Series

2009-03-07T14:14:00.000-08:00

For this series, I shopped the Re-Store many, many times; therefore, the word with its double meaning had to appear in the title. At the Re-Store, I look for rusted metals (they say--well, Neil Young said it, anyway--rust never sleeps--and I like that personification) that served some purpose and are waiting to be re-purposed. I like curved metals, odd-edged metals, metals that suggest some other structure, like arches or mandala squares or circles, and I like springs and small tiles. Oh, and those plastic X-es that are tile spacers.

I work on square canvas to suggest a mandala and search for the centerpiece to hold the focus, that for me, now, is a search and expression of Feminine Consciousness. One of my favorite places to find a meaningful centerpiece is in the ceramic pieces for artists that Clarissa Callesen creates. Not only does Clarissa create provocative assemblages that speak to spirit and the human condition, but she also is generous enough to let her ceramic bits appear in other artists' works. This is where our spiritual and creative quests intersect; I have been blessed to have found her and to be a beneficiary of that generosity.

Re-Storing Feminine Consciousness

2009-02-19T21:42:00.000-08:00

Archway to Inana, Announce Yourself, Archway to Brigid

Each 5"x5" Made from Re-Store finds and ceramics by Clarissa Callesen

Artist Trust and Quicksilver Photo Lab

2009-02-19T21:14:00.000-08:00

Artist Trust is a groovy organization that many of us belong to for the way they support artists. I just completed the Grants for Artists Projects application for $1500 toward supplies and an easel to begin work on "In the Hands of the Madwoman" series. My resume is slim, but the images of my paintings are top quality.

When I needed quality images of my work to apply for another grant, I got worried. I use so much metallic paint and interference, that they trick the light when photographed and wash out the other colors. Bad, bad photographs. I happened to snag Ramon when he was walking past my studio one afternoon and asked him if he knew of someone who photographed art. He turned me on to Quicksilver Photo Labs on Cornwall. It's a simple process. Take the artwork in on Wednesday; it's photographed on Thursday; and you pick up the work and the slides or CD on Friday. They do good work for a very reasonable price: $6.5o each image.

When I didn't get the award of the Fellowship Grant that Artist Trust offers, I called for feedback (always recommended). I was told that the quality of my images was good, so that wasn't the issue. The issue was probably that my work didn't spark any interest among the judges, but that's not my point. My point is that the images were good, and I love taking my work to Quicksilver for documentation.

Artist Trust grants focus 75% of the criteria on the response to the artist's work. So having it well represented is of utmost importance. Unlike some other granting organizations, the staff at Artist Trust is willing and available for questions that come up during grant writing and preparation.

I urge artists to sign up to receive Artist Trust's emailed newsletter and to become a member of this worthy organization. www.artisttrust.org

Still Point: Crowning

2009-02-11T21:58:00.000-08:00

This is one of three paintings inspired by Marion Woodman's talk on "The Crown of Age." What also appeared in the painting were visions of lava erupting from the active volcano in Volcano National Park in Hawai'i. This painting is 36"x36".