

So you just have to laugh when a friend looks at your art and sees a Dancing Bird Dandy. And you say, "I don't see it." And she says, "It's right here." And you say, "I still don't see it." (But I do see a cartoon hedgehog in the other figure and wonder, "Should I paint it into oblivion?") Then your friend downloads your painting from your blog and outlines the Dancing Bird Dandy and the Hedgehog profile and emails it to you. Yes now I see. And your daughter profoundly says, "Love how warring titans turn to funny cartoon characters. Says so much." Yes. Yes, it does. Nothing gets painted into oblivion. The hedgehog stays in the picture. It's one of the joys of abstract.

En-raged one nightEx-pressed onto canvas the nextA knitted dishcloth soaked in perfect greyWater squirted without thoughtA choke chain stamped in redOrange and a touch of yellow wheeled inCompliments addedCompassion now fills the emptied space.
Looks are deceiving here--someday, I'll get the technology figured out. The square paintings are 18"x18" and the rectangular are 18"x27". I haven't decided the order of the paintings yet. The process started for each painting as a rubbing of items that were symbolic of my childhood and the things that hook us as adults so that we go back to that child self.  I was looking for transcendence and transformation. The title comes from a Muriel Rukeyser quote: What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? The world would split open.

This series began with inspiration that came from looking at NASA's Picture a Day website. Nebula fascinate me. Who knew there could be such inspiration in colored gas?
I began all five of these paintings with a white and black dynamic. And then I didn't know what to do next. So they sat for five years. Then finally, one day, I had some blue acrylic paint with blue interference left over from another painting I had been working on. Not enough to put in a container, too much to wash down the drain. So I grabbed the painting that became Aditi~Space and put the remaining paint on it. That broke the barrier that was keeping me from moving forward with these paintings. Once I found my way into the process, it took (oddly enough) five weeks to finish the series.
As I was finishing the last painting in the series, I came across information about the goddess Aditi, a Vedic goddess of the infinite or the void. Having five aspects, I knew she was a part of the narrative in these paintings. Why did I name the unconscious aspect "Consciousness," though?
I had nearly finished this painting, but it had a problem. The flame from orange to white to blue in the bottom left quadrant threatened to propel the image off of the painting. I loved that part of the painting, but it was distracting, overpowering, and actually belonged to a different image. One I hadn't painted yet. Definitely not here, not now. I had protected this portion of the painting through all of the edge work. Now it was time to let it go. That's often the way it is. The places you fall in love with have to essentially provide the foundation to more color, different shapes. And actually, letting go leads to freedom and other places to love.